Random Feelings

I know I shouldn't write this post right now and maybe it's too bad to make this post as the first post in 2012. But lately this random feelings has haunted me. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me, but I feel like I'm needing to be put in the box written "Fragile". I cried, I shouted, I scolded, got mad so easily... Sucks. My past was harsh and I don't like when it comes back to haunt me. I'm sure I'm not made from glass but why it seems like I'll be broken into pieces anytime you hurt me. What a shame.

Goodbye, 2011!

2011... Time goes so fast. There are so many things that we've been through this year. Changes, fears, new experiences, happiness, sadness, hopes and doubts. It's the year I felt the most pressure to the point where I gave up so many times but I'm still learning how to get back up. It's the year I look back on all the lifetime memories in which I find myself missing the people in them, but also the year I move on. Slowly, but sure.

Prescotte
Talking about 2011 couldn't be separated with Prescotte. Present Class of Two Thousand and Eleven. We fight together for 3 years to graduated from SMA Negeri 99 Jakarta. Smiles, laughs, tears... simple. But it's too much.





































24072011
There's no more to say. I'm truly happy be officially Dimas Haryo Adhiatama's. I love him like crazy. Don't try to take him away from me.







Sweet Seventeen
Yeah, I'm 17 yo since August 23 2011. Truthfully, I wanna stay young forever. Don't wanna grow older anymore. Really.







Dentistry
Now, I'm a student at University of Prof. Dr. Moestopo (Beragama). And luckily I've found these people below. They're amazing <3





















And in the next approximately 2 - 3 hours, we have to say goodbye to this year. To the year which means so much for me. But the year is going, let it go. Ring out the false, ring in the true. Maybe this kinda a lil bit earlier, but I'd like to say:

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!

One Litre of Tears (2005)

Last week, I rewatched this Japanese television drama on Youtube. It is about a girl who diagnosed with an incurable disease called Spinocerebellar Arthropy -a terrible disease where the cerebellum of the brain gradually deteriorates to the point where the victim cannot walk, speak, write, or eat- at 15. This beautifully moving drama is based on true story from Aya. The script is based on the diary Aya kept writing until she could no longer hold a pen. The book that later followed entitled “One Litre of Tears" has sold over 1.1 million copies in Japan. There are some quotes that i like from this drama. Here are some of them:

Plants are great, aren't they? Even when it rains and they get soaked, they still stay there growing fresh flowers. I wanna become that strong too. If I were a flower, then now I'd be a bud. I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets.

What's wrong with falling down? Because as long as I stand up again it'll be just fine. If you look up at the sky after falling down, the blue sky is also today, stretching limitlessly and smiles at me.

It's fine if I'm in pain by myself. But I'm also bringing trouble to people around me. Pitiful. Even if it's still like that, I still wanna stay here. Because this is the place where I am.

I really don't wanna say thing such as "I wanna go back to how things were before". People shouldn't dwell on the past. It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing. I recognize who I am right now and I'll continue to live on. Therefore, I definitely won't run away. That's what I'll do. Definitely, and always.

If it weren't for this disease, I might be in love. I wanna cling to someone's arm so badly.

For me, as long as it is you who saying it, it doesn't matter how slowly you say it, I'll still listen. If you can talk over the phone, then I'll come to see you just like this. If you want to walk, no matter how slow it will be, I'll walk beside you.

If we can beat pain, I won't be impatient, I won't be greedy, I won't give up. Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I don't even have the right to dream. As I think about future, the tears will come out again. But then I realize, I'm not the only one in pain.

Fate, it can't be put in words. You really can make people accept it. I really wanna be hugged tightly by someone.

Kinda heart touching drama. I love it <3

Klarifikasi

Hello fellas, long time no see. Oke gue tau judul postingan ini sok ngartis banget tapi sumpah gue kesel tingkat diatas dewa. Kenapa? Karena ada hacker ga jelas berulah lagi. Kalo waktu kelas 10 dulu yang dihack cuma Facebook sama Msn gue, sekarang semua account Social Networking gue ga bisa dibuka. But thank God, Blog gue tercinta ini masih bisa terselamatkan hahaha. Well, sekarang lo bisa add atau follow gue di:

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Atau add Instant Messaging gue di:

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Tapi maklum ya kalo masih pada kosong apa gimana namanya juga baru semua hiks. Pokoknya selain yang gue sebut diatas, Blog ini, dan Instagram gue (@Faradinai) berarti account itu bukan punya gue. Btw buat yang 'nyolong' account2 gue, gue cuma mau bilang kalo ga suka sama gue atau gimana bilang aja terus terang ga usah pake cara kaya gini. Karena lo malah terlihat kampungan hahaha peace bro. Ga jaman yegak berantem2. Oke deh segini dulu yaaa postingan kali ini abis gue ga tau mau ngomong apa lagi haha. Oh iya, selamat natal buat yang merayakan ya. Night!

Letters To Heart

Dear Heart,
I know that you're sad caused the things that happened to you. I know that you got hurt for many times. I know that he made you dissapointed by turned into everythings he said he would never be. I know that he broke you into pieces but he didn't even try to fix you. And... I do really know how much it hurts when you see him with any other girls.

Hey, do think! You bother me with all those shity things. I have a lot of thoughts also. Don't make me think about it all the times. Get over him. He isn't worth your tears. Why do you spend your time wondering where he is and who he is with when you could get better and more? Are you sure that he is thinking about you? The fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah, I know it's gonna hurt seeing he hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter. He knows it's killing you that's why he will do it because all he would do is try to make you jealous.

But you know what your gonna do? Go and find out someone who could fix you. You're just too afraid to take a step. It's like you have this fear that every person you start to like is going to break you. You're not afraid to love, you're just afraid of not being loved. Show him that you're strong enough for these shits. Show him that you don't need him. Trust me, he will be sorry when he finally sees you be fixed by other guys who's not him. He will realize the huge mistake he made that is left you broken by decided to choose her over you. So... just keep calm and stay strong. You deserve more.

Sincerely,
Brain.